Wednesday, April 16, 2008
i had the feeling of being abandoned during life sci
before the presentation.
i feel the nervousness that gripped me when i presented.
i feel the emptyness when i stand inside the toilet outside the cubicles.
i feel the emptyness during IT lesson.
i feel extreme tiredness when i walked out of the com lab.
i feel slight pleasure when i done my wooden toy.
but it only last for a while.
why do i feel such emptyness when i hung up the phone?
why do i feel like an empty shell typing all this?
i have nothing to do at all having on the com,
expcept for typing all this.
the emptyness like you have no goal at all.
nothing to do at all.
no happy/excited/ sad or frustration.
just sitting there. nothing.
staring n thinking of nothing.
i dont have the feeling to do anything.
homework. no.
and i dont feel the stress at this moment.
play. it doesnt work. i dont feel fun at all.
i wonder just who am i?
who the one talking n laughing?
who the one feeling emo?
i duno. really.
this is just the feeling of the me at this moment.
maybe i am another later.
sometimes i wish i can just faint at that particular time.
and then, i dont need to do anything.
maybe i am just wanting to runaway from doing all that stuffs.
my family is fine.
maybe it's just me.
sometimes, i have these doubts,
do he/ she really feels so or thinks so?
maybe i am just being paranoid. maybe not.
before the presentation.
i feel the nervousness that gripped me when i presented.
i feel the emptyness when i stand inside the toilet outside the cubicles.
i feel the emptyness during IT lesson.
i feel extreme tiredness when i walked out of the com lab.
i feel slight pleasure when i done my wooden toy.
but it only last for a while.
why do i feel such emptyness when i hung up the phone?
why do i feel like an empty shell typing all this?
i have nothing to do at all having on the com,
expcept for typing all this.
the emptyness like you have no goal at all.
nothing to do at all.
no happy/excited/ sad or frustration.
just sitting there. nothing.
staring n thinking of nothing.
i dont have the feeling to do anything.
homework. no.
and i dont feel the stress at this moment.
play. it doesnt work. i dont feel fun at all.
i wonder just who am i?
who the one talking n laughing?
who the one feeling emo?
i duno. really.
this is just the feeling of the me at this moment.
maybe i am another later.
sometimes i wish i can just faint at that particular time.
and then, i dont need to do anything.
maybe i am just wanting to runaway from doing all that stuffs.
my family is fine.
maybe it's just me.
sometimes, i have these doubts,
do he/ she really feels so or thinks so?
maybe i am just being paranoid. maybe not.
6:36 PM
