Monday, January 28, 2013
♥ Frustrations
Since sat night, i am in an extremely bad mood. I get so easily frustrated and the anger built up inside me. Is this the kind of life i want to live? No. I care so much about my studies, putting it as priority over people. I don't really socialize with people. To me, everything was schoolwork work work work. My form of outlet is watching drama/ shows/ kpop stuffs/ mangas. Whatever that allows me to escape from the real world. I sleep at late hours and very little hrs during sch days. i feel like a zombie in sch, yet i still pay attention in classes. Going to sch is an ordeal to me too. I get caught in jam, having to take more than an hr ride and became late for classes. With my cousins, i feel like an outsider. And i remember there is no truly a home country that i belong to. Here, i am a foreigner and i dont know much about malaysia. Exams is around the corner and there is still project, tests, prac tests and all those hws. I was trying to sleep early ytd and today but it wasnt successful. It didnt help that i had been quite rude to my family and thou i felt bad, i did it without thinking again. I felt like an awful and selfish person. Mum and me are busy with our own stuffs and it feels like we dun understand each other. Feels like i cant break out of this routine and my own wall.
2:05 AM
